Lol, read through this for the first time since today. You're vegan now, buddy! Hahaha Been vegan since...July 10th, 2012, I believe. Takes time to see how much you really grow. But there is a pattern here. Wonder how much my teachers knew about me and patterns and what it really was I had in mind when I spoke of 2012 and chakras and love. This diet is a reflection of my values. I wish I had a Dumbledore to help me out, but, things are good now. I know. I see. I speak. I love. I do. I feel. I am. ☼ ♥ :) :peace:

Let's try this again

Day 1 (Aug. 18, 2010)

Virtually no hunger this first day, second time around. Nothing uncomfortable, maybe a kidney ache? for a minute when I was awkwardly sitting on my couch with my DS. Been drinking distilled water and that's all. I went out and bought some blueberries, strawberries and a pineapple should I want to get some freshly juiced juice in my system, but for now, it's a water fasting. From what I read, it's the most aggressive way to cleanse the body of toxins.

Sometimes I can smell the random foods that come into my subconscious. I smelt ketchup while watching lost. Thinking of biting into an almond made me drool a waterfall. Lame comparison, yeah, especially since I feel that way every time I think about almonds. If anything, the biggest dilemma I've had on my mind is whether or not to get a bloomin' onion before I leave. I wouldn't get a steak with it, just a salad, the onion, and bread. But to think of all the nasty shite that grease goes through...but it's so flippin' tasty. Better than the cheese fries with bacon, yeah?

Day 2

Jammin'. My stomach did growl today, but only twice maybe. Hunger does not seem to be an issue thus far. The cravings weren't as intense today either. I got some heat flashes last night going to bed, but that's about it. I'm not sweating or anything. The hardest things so far have been:

1) passing the time - especially evenings when others eat, and I've already spent 5 hours playing simcity.
2) watching a movie without popcorn
3) reassuring myself this is all worth it

I did notice one positive difference in body awareness today. My legs have felt fairly weak all day, either from the lack of food or my running around the pond yesterday, so I decided to take a walk around the neighborhood (passes time, right?). What I noticed was that my pores felt like they were more..open? or cleared, maybe. 'Cause while the air was temperate, it felt like would attach to my skin with its moistness. Not chilling, but rather pleasant. The feeling somewhat multiplied even. When that sensation was coupled with a good or funny thought, I could feel the endorphins to start rush my body. It was pleasurable, consistent, and clean. One with the air, I suppose?

Well that's at least increased sensitivity to touch. I hope something else changes tomorrow. Not eating is BORING. Makes you think just how much we revolve our lives (schedules) around food.

One more thing. While on my walk, these kids playing in the street/sidewalk were looking at me. As I walked by I asked them how they were doing. They were just fine, but I noticed my voice sounded incredibly serene asking. No tension in my channel, whatsoever.

Day 1

Well, I'm lying in bed after my first day of not eating anything. I'm actually not as hungry as I thought I would be. I suspect I'll be hearing my stomach growl hard tomorrow. It hasn't said anything yet... you think it would after a day of no solids. I think this is quite possibly the first time my stomach has gone a whole day without food.

I woke up at around 8:30 to appease my mom by going to church. To and fro, I looked at the restaurant signs, picturing all the delicious breakfast options I could be enjoying. I'm progressively becoming a better vegetarian, but when I saw that Bojangles offers breakfast (fried chicken and biscuits) holy crap that never sounded so good in my life. And I've never even been to Bojangles! All the different desires that popped into my head today, they were so diverse in substance, I didn't really care what it was or how bad it would be for me. I just know I CRAVED it. Sushi. Reese's pieces. Burger King Dollar menu. Popcorn. I stuck my face in a jar of peanuts to let the smell intoxicate me..started drooling immediately. I didn't see all of those cravings on TV or around the house, the food themselves were linked with other thoughts I was having throughout the day, non-food related. As a sort of bodily response to the emotion behind the thought..kind of like how when alcoholics have thoughts they can't deal with
emotionally, their bodies naturally develop the sense to fill the void of their thoughts with alcohol.
Food really does have the same effect.
There are just so many different foods we consume, we can't really tell feel how each individual meal affects us physio-and-psychologically.

So from Day 1's standpoint, hunger is nearly all psychological.

I will continue fasting for the next six days with water and freshly extracted orange juice. I hope I can sleep.